Dear Children of mine,
You drive me crazy. Before you I slept when I wanted, went out when I needed and had no responsibilities. Before you, I had friends and a life, much different from now. I went to bed at 3 in the morning, now I sleep by 10, so I can be up by 3 to change diapers and feed the baby. I rush when I’m out because, I miss you. I want to spend all of my time with you. I hate to admit I hate sleeping alone, but love that you all love sleeping in my bed. You drive me crazy, but in a good way. I’m up early (most days, anyway.) I’m a Mom, I have meaning. Before you I sort of felt useless, mommy felt she needed someone to keep her happy. A friend, but when I had you all – I realized the friends that left me weren’t at all friends. The friends that said they’d be there until the end just walked out of our life and I’m 110% okay with that – all because I have you. I’ve had sleepless nights, I’ve heard countless cries and wiped thousands of tears (and butts. to be completely honest) I watched your first steps lead you right to your first day at school – I love you and thank you for wiping Mommys tears and putting up with all of my cries. I know I’m emotional. I’ve always been. I’m so glad I have you. The amount of love I have for you all could never be replaced. I will always be here to love and teach you. That’s why Mommy homeschools. The time I spend with you, watching the pace at which you grow and learn is amazing. Teaching you three girls how to love and value yourself as girls, teaching you about how far we’ve come. And my boy, teaching you all you need to know about life, how to correctly treat a woman and to always stand up for what you believe in. All of you always stand up for what you love and that’s why I look up to you. You’ve taught me so much of what I know and I love you all beyond words for it. I’ll take a little stress, a few gray hairs and all the “lovely perks of parenting” ANY DAY if it means I get to have you all in my life. Mommy loves you.